slow drag 

a jag

of youth on the prowl

for a dad

fled from hell

to hell

and stench

and chains

and dreams of riches

with bubble baths

and worn loins

and sad laughter

for a dead child

dogging messiahs

to heal their tears

blowing bubbles to air

nursing with care

feelings coddled in worth

for some body

dads stalk sure

their youth

and lost boyhoods

still lost

wending

and twisting fixations

with restless lust

like blind men poking

into their wooded past

eros tracks the young ones

in the shadows of the street

with the phantoms of their soul

near the crevice in their heart

a carnal quest of lost gods

seeking a ME in their eyes

*Reflections of Alan Jones:

  -The Hebrew Bible helps to make us rebellious, as does  the Christian mystical tradition.

  -The mystics believe that the universe is trying to tell us something about ourselves.

  -Love itself is a form of knowledge.

  -The point of reading the Bible is for mystical transformation, not for defending a particular position or punishing those whom we  regard as deviant.

  -Conversation is closer to conversion than we thought.  We have to be in an obedient community, one where the members listen to each other.  According to this tradition, life is the peregrinatio pro Christo, "exile for Christ's sake," an ongoing process of conversion.  Conversion means continually being pierced to the heart, also called compunction - a form of clarity that makes us open to new possibilities.  Like a good conversation, conversion offers the constant promise of change