What's happening to me?

Why does she hold me like this

treat me like her lover?

I am frightened by the feelings

rushing through my veins

a flare of fire burning in my flesh.

I sweat

and my skin tingles to the touch.

Set me down

lest I pee upon myself

lest my flow should become milk

and I shout in pleasured pain.

Spare me, my future.

Curse me not with doubts.

Let me be child and wrestle

in the grass but not in mind

or upon a troubled heart forever

in search of meaning forever

forever in search of why.

Release me.

Spare me, a child.

I've witnessed Death

  yours and mine 

and Ours throughout Time.

I tremble at our deed 

curse the will that chose the path: 

our path 

our will 

our burden upon the Land 

laying deep in spirits now 

struggling to revive 

to know 

The Hidden Who walked us 

called us in the Garden

giving us Light supreme.

We've killed ourselves 

and them 

and that 

which nurtures us 

for now we're lost again 

a fleeing mass of Want.

Hold me till the New Dawn breaks 

and we birthed 

in Yahweh's Paradise.