Learn to recognize the faith that reveals a secret despair: Jean Sulivan

Awaiting

I.

Who understands the naked Christ except the naked child?

They're shoved into caves layered in our lives

waiting embrace, to be drawn nearer to light.

Our minds wound them in gossamer lies

finessed enough to categorize out.

It's completed with a smile, a toasted success to the visions of lords

who place peons on the pathways of degradation for their betterment

the civil cause served to conquer evil in their bearing.

Here dwell the victims damaged by fate

offspring of animals whose mothers were raped.

A real blessing their snatching from hell

that a taste of heaven will be their most memorable state.

"We'll screw you white, whiter than the salty sand

re-pigment your kind that you might gain insight.

See Jesus suckered upon the cross?

Embrace him.  He's funky like you pitiable beasts.

Press your bruised breasts upon his battered chest.

His sperm drips grace if you touch his sores".

II.

Help them, Jesus, help them

see the damage initiated trying to right the world.

Help before suicide is the fate of the wronged

before a thousand rapes take place in the name of the law

as filigreed memories support the fermented crimes.

Pat them on their backs for repelling the virtues of revenge

their anger seething, seeping like a pot of venom tea.

Help them, sweet Jesus, help them, learning your word

that mercy might attend to their slaughtered ghosts

as they await the revelation of righteous love.

Their wretched past is smoked o'er with vials of perfume

seducing the victims trapped in the agonies of shame.

III.

History is writ by the conquerors' hand

till the day of retribution yanks the scales from their eyes.

*Each day is only itself and I can't make it other than what it is.

*God is not an extra in a movie.  God is the movie and we're the screen upon which 

God is viewed.  God must be seen in a new way and that way is love: love of self and love of the other as self.

*Our great temptation is to not accept being the Father's child and living as one.

*Thoughts of Jean Sulivan:

  -To hesitate, to change one's mind, to make mistakes, these are proofs of honesty.

  -We rush past questions in order to avoid anxiety.

  -By his absence-presence Jesus is more present than in the flesh.  Every spiritual experience, if it's        not just imaginary, is rooted in this understanding.

  -...to meet God is at the same instant to deny him.  Every certitude is a way of "putting God to              death".