Ah

i.

slow motion

it happened

till suggestion became movement

and his body waved gracious

salacious

with phallic seduction

ii.

"The rape

the blood

the scream"

the boy at school he knew

iii.

him

the victim/the victimizer

iv.

no questions

no answers

just on-talk of wonder

when fear induced me

and chased him away

*People change, if at all, as a result of age and life experience, and not because of deliberate efforts to change.  With time we come to understand that we have to give up the hope of a change, and be ready to accept ourselves as we are, with all our deficiencies and drawbacks.  The key is not in the drive to change or improve ourselves, but in being ready to live with ourselves, to befriend ourselves, as Socrates puts it.

-Ilan Amit

*The only sensible attitude is to give up worrying about the next moment, to let the natural process take its course.  There is no need to measure or compare this present moment in length and intensity to any other.  At this moment only the present exists; and it is incomparable to anything else.  Two or twenty flashes of illumination are not better than one single flash.

-Ilan Amit