do i believe?

i.

do i believe
i'll commit suicide
if i leap sitting here
neath "foul weather"?

it's a ? i ask
...but y?
fear?
of saying gd-bye
& movin' on?

what's in me
...or not?
courage?
failure?
mistake?

i wonder.

ii.

o Gd,
come to my assistance.
wash my sin away;
let we grow
[n] be a new man
...woman
or ever what i might b,
might be
...w/grace.

iii.

yes,
i say!
yes!
some art is madness
2 c.
b free.
b alive.
survive the sadness.